That's it. I'm tired of denying it. I, Laura, am a hopeless romantic to the extreme. OK, maybe not that far, but pretty close. All my life I've dreamed about what kind of romance that I would want to have, and after years and years of watching movies and tv shows and seeing people that I know fall in love and get married, I still have absolutely no idea whatsoever of the type of romance I really like.
I really shouldn't be saying "type of romance". More like "styles of wooing" Or even "type of guy" would be more appropriate. Although as I have been informed by many, you don't really have types, you just kind of fall for someone. Why then do I keep getting crushes on guys who all share a lot of the same qualities and personality traits, then?
MOVING ON.
I know (sort of) what I don't like, outside of the obvious things that every girl has on her list (and if they don't, their priorities are messed up and they need to see a therapist ASAP) No alcoholics, no abusers, no druggies, etc... But I'm not really clear on what I DO want. Oh sure, there are some things that I see, both in real life and in movies, that I want, like the way the guy looks at the girl, or how happy they look together, and I know that I want that, but that's pretty much it.
I guess that's all I really need to look for, anyway. Someone who makes me happy and loves me as much (or maybe even more O.O) as I love them and is nice to me and likes kids (I plan on having at least 4, but no more than 6 or 7) and really cheesy movies (like Bride and Prejudice, Spectacular, Spy Kids, etc...)
But if I don't know what I'm looking for, then how do I go about dating the right guys for me?! Am I just supposed to wait for them to come and find me and ask me out? What if they're too shy (I hope not, I'm not a big fan of shyness, but it depends on the degree of shyness) or if they think that I'm not interested, or something.
I want a guy who gives me a single rose, and holds my hand as we walk, and lets me sing around the house without getting too annoyed with me, and likes to go to amusement parks and ride the roller-coasters and play a bunch of the games and will try to win me the biggest stuffed animal they have for me to carry around all day, someone who puts his family ahead of his work, who laughs at my cheesy jokes, and who knows exactly how to calm me down and make me see reason when I start to get one of my mini freak outs. And it wouldn't hurt if he was cute, but I don't think that that will be a problem. If they have a great personality and I genuinely fall for them, I'm pretty sure that I'll find them attractive.
Just have to say one more thing on the topic of romance: I'm watching the Bachelorrette right now, and it is the stupidest thing ever. Or, at least, she's making stupid decisions. I keep sitting here, yelling at her as she lets some really great, awesome guys who truly care for her get away and lets those who are there for all the wrong reasons (i.e. tv time, promoting their own business and actually really hate her in real life, coughBentleycoughcough) AFTER being warned about them from a friend who knows the ex-wife, anyway. I do empathize with her a bit, though. More than I'd like to admit, I'm afraid. But I don't agree with a lot of her decisions. She is just putting herself on the road to depression and despair and heartbreak, and I wish her all the luck in the world. She's gonna need it :/
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Just an experiment....
Leonardo DiCaprio, yes that one guy from such famous movies like Inception and Titanic, age 36, is allegedly going out with 23 year old Blake Lively (Gossip Girl, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants) O.O Only very recently, Leonardo and his ex girlfriend (whose name I do not remember but apparently is a model and 25 years old) have broken up (again) after a 6-year on/off relationship. Some sources (anonymous) say that they do this every couple years or so. "They could be back together next week," says anonymous source "They're like that."
And miss Blake Lively herself has also recently (not as recently as Leo, though) broken it off after a long term relationship with one of her Gossip Girl male co-stars after about 2-3 years together.
So, not only are Leo and Blake 13 years apart, but they're also both kind of on the rebound. Now, I actually don't think that the age thing is as big a deal as a lot of other people do, but it if someone (cough, Leo, cough cough) repeatedly has girlfriends over ten years younger than him, that either says that they're extremely mature for their age (which, let's face it, to be in that business you either have to be extremely mature or extremely immature), or that he's immature for his age. Or maybe it's just a coincidence that both his last girlfriend and his new one are much younger than him.
How long will this romance last? Hard to say, as they seem to be moving pretty fast. Already, after just being spotted twice together, they're vacationing in Italy, trying to hide the fact that they're there together, but failing miserably. So either this is just a short fling, or the start to the greatest, fastest whirlwind romance of the 21st century.
NEW STORY!
Selena Gomez is no longer hiding the fact that she and Justin Bieber are going out. They were seen together in Hawaii embracing and having fun and being in young love on the beach, apparently with little to no parental supervision, with Selena in a tiny bikini, and Justin showing off his two tattoos , one on his rib-cage and the other on his lower stomach. The young 18 year old actress/singer said that she's tired of hiding their relationship, and although she does like to keep these sort of things private, it's not really possible anymore.
They first went public at a Vanity Fair party after the Oscars, when they kissed outside while waiting for their car. They even had matching outfits on, for goodness sake!
Anyway, this couple is no longer in the dark, and they are enjoying every minute of it, by the looks of things.
NEW STORY!
If you watched the finale of American Idol, then you probably saw winner Scotty McCreery and runner-up Lauren Alaina share a smooch. For many, this cemented the fact that they are an official, couple, but in interviews since then. Scotty says that they're still "just friends." Scotty went on to say that he knew that Lauren was going o kiss him if he won, because she told him before the show. "It was meant to be a joke," he continues, "Lauren's like that."
So, what do you think? Just another cover-up to hide the truth, or is a kiss really just a kiss?
And miss Blake Lively herself has also recently (not as recently as Leo, though) broken it off after a long term relationship with one of her Gossip Girl male co-stars after about 2-3 years together.
So, not only are Leo and Blake 13 years apart, but they're also both kind of on the rebound. Now, I actually don't think that the age thing is as big a deal as a lot of other people do, but it if someone (cough, Leo, cough cough) repeatedly has girlfriends over ten years younger than him, that either says that they're extremely mature for their age (which, let's face it, to be in that business you either have to be extremely mature or extremely immature), or that he's immature for his age. Or maybe it's just a coincidence that both his last girlfriend and his new one are much younger than him.
How long will this romance last? Hard to say, as they seem to be moving pretty fast. Already, after just being spotted twice together, they're vacationing in Italy, trying to hide the fact that they're there together, but failing miserably. So either this is just a short fling, or the start to the greatest, fastest whirlwind romance of the 21st century.
NEW STORY!
Selena Gomez is no longer hiding the fact that she and Justin Bieber are going out. They were seen together in Hawaii embracing and having fun and being in young love on the beach, apparently with little to no parental supervision, with Selena in a tiny bikini, and Justin showing off his two tattoos , one on his rib-cage and the other on his lower stomach. The young 18 year old actress/singer said that she's tired of hiding their relationship, and although she does like to keep these sort of things private, it's not really possible anymore.
They first went public at a Vanity Fair party after the Oscars, when they kissed outside while waiting for their car. They even had matching outfits on, for goodness sake!
Anyway, this couple is no longer in the dark, and they are enjoying every minute of it, by the looks of things.
NEW STORY!
If you watched the finale of American Idol, then you probably saw winner Scotty McCreery and runner-up Lauren Alaina share a smooch. For many, this cemented the fact that they are an official, couple, but in interviews since then. Scotty says that they're still "just friends." Scotty went on to say that he knew that Lauren was going o kiss him if he won, because she told him before the show. "It was meant to be a joke," he continues, "Lauren's like that."
So, what do you think? Just another cover-up to hide the truth, or is a kiss really just a kiss?
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Sorry that it's been forever :(
Ok, so I am officially the world's worst blogger. I haven't posted anything in FOREVER! Oh my goodness, I don't even know where to start. Well, it's that time of year again! Spring Formal (aka Mormon prom) and school prom are coming up! Yay!! I already know about four people who've been asked to one or the other, and we have more than a month to either of them. In fact, in two days, it will be exactly a month until Spring Formal. I don't know whether or not I want to be asked to either of them. I mean, I;m still a junior, and the senior prom is the one that you're supposed to be all pumped up about to go to, right? So, if I don't get asked this yea, I'll just have my own little party at home this year, like I did last year, and not be too heart-broken about it. Same with Spring Formal. I heard somewhere that the guys are supposed to ask girls in their wards, and that kind of rules me out. Actually, it doesn't kind of, it does. We don't have many priests in out ward, and the ones we do have wouldn't ask me. Now, I'm not being down on myself, let me explain. One, one of them is my best friends younger brother, and I've known him since forever. Can you say awkward? The next one doesn't go to dances, and claims that he doesn't even like girls yet. He says that he never wants to get married either, let's see if he can keep that up his whole life. The next one is one, younger than me, and two thinks that I'm an idiot and really doesn't like me. And the last one (I think we only have four) doesn't like going to dances at all. Sooo, yeah.
Then there's the school prom. As far as I know, there aren't any boys who would ask me as their first choice, not to mention the fact that there are practically three times as many girls as boys at my school. And besides, the guy I like likes another girl, and I've been trying to make sure that he asks her to prom, because I know that she likes him back, so yeah. And I'm not one of those girls who doesn't want to go with anyone but the guy she likes, I'm sure I'd have fun with whoever I ended going with if they asked me, unless they're a creep, in which case I'd have to say no to them O.O
But yeah, that's my dating life in a nutshell. Non-existent, at least until the next girl-ask-guy dance. I don't mind asking the guys out that much, but after a while of being the only one asking, a girl does start to wonder. But I'm not the only one out there not being asked out on dates every weekend, so at least I know that I'm somewhat normal. Besides, it's not like I;m marrying age. Yet. Scary thought there. Yet, I've been looking forward to being married my whole life, so I don't know why I should be in a y way scared of it. But then I guess that the whole idea of growing up is scary to everyo0ne at some point in their life.
Whoa, way off topic there. Sorry 'bout that. You just got a little glimpse of the way my mind works :P
Anyway, so there's a girl in my ward who is lamenting the fact that I've never been kissed. In fact, she was telling me that I should just go up to the guy I like and kiss him. I tried telling her that you can't just go up and kiss a guy randomly and not have it somehow backfire on you, especially when you know that he like someone else, and you happen to be friends with that person and she likes him back.She responded that after one kiss from me, he would stop liking her and like me instead. I didn't bother to respond that then it would be for all the wrong reasons, and that really, I'm fine with never having been kissed. Most people I know advise against it at such a young age unless I do happen to find my soul mate, but even then I'm still only 17, for goodness sake,. that's preety dang young in the scheme of things.
Ok, my fingers hurt, but remind me to tell you later about a couple games of MASH and, maybe, choir. :)
Then there's the school prom. As far as I know, there aren't any boys who would ask me as their first choice, not to mention the fact that there are practically three times as many girls as boys at my school. And besides, the guy I like likes another girl, and I've been trying to make sure that he asks her to prom, because I know that she likes him back, so yeah. And I'm not one of those girls who doesn't want to go with anyone but the guy she likes, I'm sure I'd have fun with whoever I ended going with if they asked me, unless they're a creep, in which case I'd have to say no to them O.O
But yeah, that's my dating life in a nutshell. Non-existent, at least until the next girl-ask-guy dance. I don't mind asking the guys out that much, but after a while of being the only one asking, a girl does start to wonder. But I'm not the only one out there not being asked out on dates every weekend, so at least I know that I'm somewhat normal. Besides, it's not like I;m marrying age. Yet. Scary thought there. Yet, I've been looking forward to being married my whole life, so I don't know why I should be in a y way scared of it. But then I guess that the whole idea of growing up is scary to everyo0ne at some point in their life.
Whoa, way off topic there. Sorry 'bout that. You just got a little glimpse of the way my mind works :P
Anyway, so there's a girl in my ward who is lamenting the fact that I've never been kissed. In fact, she was telling me that I should just go up to the guy I like and kiss him. I tried telling her that you can't just go up and kiss a guy randomly and not have it somehow backfire on you, especially when you know that he like someone else, and you happen to be friends with that person and she likes him back.She responded that after one kiss from me, he would stop liking her and like me instead. I didn't bother to respond that then it would be for all the wrong reasons, and that really, I'm fine with never having been kissed. Most people I know advise against it at such a young age unless I do happen to find my soul mate, but even then I'm still only 17, for goodness sake,. that's preety dang young in the scheme of things.
Ok, my fingers hurt, but remind me to tell you later about a couple games of MASH and, maybe, choir. :)
Saturday, March 5, 2011
New opinion...
So, I don't hate all teenage boys anymore. I wrote that out of anger at one guy, and that's not fair to all the other guys out there. Soooo, not all teenage boys are horrible people. Just like not all teenage girls are perfect little angels.
I was going to talk all about Sadies in this post, but I'm really busy right now, so I'll just make a new one later and tell all about it then. :) Just let me say this: IT. WAS. AWESOME!!!! :D Soooo, yeah. More to come :)
I was going to talk all about Sadies in this post, but I'm really busy right now, so I'll just make a new one later and tell all about it then. :) Just let me say this: IT. WAS. AWESOME!!!! :D Soooo, yeah. More to come :)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Teenage boys....
So, I have this theory, please correct me if I'm wrong (and I don't think I am), but I have this theory that teenage boys are the stupidest creatures ever to walk the planet Earth (with a few exceptions who are few and far between and very rare). Seriously. What my cousin Jenn said about boys being stupid till they get back from their missions and get a masters degree, then they're finally decent, is soooo true. At least, it sure looks like that right now. And I'm sure the more boys I get to know, that this belief will only continue to build >:(
So, I found out that, apparently, the guy I like is a major player. As in, he has a girl for every day of the week. He'll ignore you for most of the time, but when it comes to be your turn, he'll pay all the attention in the world to you, the go back to ignoring you all over again. And I realized as the person who was telling me all this said that that it really was true, except for two people: me and the girl he likes. Me, because I don't wait for him to come up and talk to me, I go up and talk to him, so as the person told me this after I said this, "See, he probably didn't even need a day for you; you talk to him all by yourself." Or something like that. Close enough. And also the girl he likes because, well, it's the girl he likes, so they're always together, etc....
I went to visit my dad today. I sat down by his grave and talked to him, about boys, about my talk that I'm going to be giving in stake conference, just stuff going on in my life, etc... I miss him so much, especially right now in my life. I know about the Plan of Salvation and all that, but it doesn't quite numb the pain of missing him or anything. I have more to say, but I'm tired of writing, so I'll stop here, except for one more thing. SADIES IS TOMORROW, AHHHHHH!!!!!! :D I'm glad I have the date I have. He's awesome, even if he is a bit of a flirt at times, he's a nice guy and is very sincere. :) Well, at least I have one thing to look forward to involving boys this weekend.
So, I found out that, apparently, the guy I like is a major player. As in, he has a girl for every day of the week. He'll ignore you for most of the time, but when it comes to be your turn, he'll pay all the attention in the world to you, the go back to ignoring you all over again. And I realized as the person who was telling me all this said that that it really was true, except for two people: me and the girl he likes. Me, because I don't wait for him to come up and talk to me, I go up and talk to him, so as the person told me this after I said this, "See, he probably didn't even need a day for you; you talk to him all by yourself." Or something like that. Close enough. And also the girl he likes because, well, it's the girl he likes, so they're always together, etc....
I went to visit my dad today. I sat down by his grave and talked to him, about boys, about my talk that I'm going to be giving in stake conference, just stuff going on in my life, etc... I miss him so much, especially right now in my life. I know about the Plan of Salvation and all that, but it doesn't quite numb the pain of missing him or anything. I have more to say, but I'm tired of writing, so I'll stop here, except for one more thing. SADIES IS TOMORROW, AHHHHHH!!!!!! :D I'm glad I have the date I have. He's awesome, even if he is a bit of a flirt at times, he's a nice guy and is very sincere. :) Well, at least I have one thing to look forward to involving boys this weekend.
Friday, February 25, 2011
My current love situation...
Girl likes boy. Boy likes different girl. Different girl likes boy back. First girl watches boy and different girl together.
Girl asks another boy somewhere. "Another" boy is nice. Girl starts thinking maybe she should like "another" boy to take mind off of boy. Doesn't quite work. Causes girl to go into emotional hysteria.
Boy seems to be paying less attention than ever to girl. Girl starts to notice and feels sad. Girl tries to talk to boy. Boy doesn't respond very well. Girl starts to get annoyed with herself but disguises it as being annoyed with boy. Maybe girl is annoyed with boy and the way he is acting. Maybe not. All this thinking is driving girl into yet another case of emotional hysteria.
Girl is very confused. Does girl like boy, or does she like "another" boy? Or maybe girl likes both, but in different ways. Maybe same way.
Oh, no, girl doesn't like that, not at all.
Girl notices that the more times she types girl just how strange looking a word it is, and how funny sounding, too.
Girl starts to wish that all this could just end and she could go back to being happy. Girl hates faking it.
Girl has lots of friends in relationships. Girl very happy for them. Girl also very sad and jealous.
Girl afraid of never finding anybody to love her. Girl even more afraid that she won't love them back, at least not for long. Girl worries that her emotions are too easily swayed. Girl also worries about being good enough, not really. Girl thinks that she is good enough, just worried boys won't think so.
Girl very tired of writing like this >:(
Girl just wants everything to be ok again. :/
Girl asks another boy somewhere. "Another" boy is nice. Girl starts thinking maybe she should like "another" boy to take mind off of boy. Doesn't quite work. Causes girl to go into emotional hysteria.
Boy seems to be paying less attention than ever to girl. Girl starts to notice and feels sad. Girl tries to talk to boy. Boy doesn't respond very well. Girl starts to get annoyed with herself but disguises it as being annoyed with boy. Maybe girl is annoyed with boy and the way he is acting. Maybe not. All this thinking is driving girl into yet another case of emotional hysteria.
Girl is very confused. Does girl like boy, or does she like "another" boy? Or maybe girl likes both, but in different ways. Maybe same way.
Oh, no, girl doesn't like that, not at all.
Girl notices that the more times she types girl just how strange looking a word it is, and how funny sounding, too.
Girl starts to wish that all this could just end and she could go back to being happy. Girl hates faking it.
Girl has lots of friends in relationships. Girl very happy for them. Girl also very sad and jealous.
Girl afraid of never finding anybody to love her. Girl even more afraid that she won't love them back, at least not for long. Girl worries that her emotions are too easily swayed. Girl also worries about being good enough, not really. Girl thinks that she is good enough, just worried boys won't think so.
Girl very tired of writing like this >:(
Girl just wants everything to be ok again. :/
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Just venting....
So, I've fallen for this guy. I know, I know, the story of every teenage girls' life. we fall for someone, we think that it's the end of the world if they don't notice us or happen to like someone else, or even worse, turn out to be a major jerk and end up breaking your heart on purpose. Then there are the ones who are your friends, and are totally oblivious to the fact that you like them, or think that it's just going to go away and it's fine, so they continue to flirt with other girls in front of you anyway. Stupid boys. Then there's this guy that I think I am totally giving the wrong impression to, the impression that I like him as more than a friend when I don't. I like him as just a friend, and I hate the fact that I might be giving him the wrong impression, but what can I do? I know, stop leading him on, but I never meant to in the first place, so how do I stop now? I was just being myself, wasn't I? Aren't I? I don't know.
Anyway, back to the guy that I DO like, I really am at a loss of what to do. I just keep feeling like I'm not good enough for him, that there's something that I don't have like I'm lacking an extremely important quality, and then I start to nitpick at everything about me, my weight, my life habits, the way I act, talk, my grades, the way that no guys that I am ever interested in like me. These last couple weeks, I've worried more and watched my weight more than I have ever watched it. And I've been comparing myself to a girl that I know he does (or at least used to, I don't know if he still does) like and wondering what she has that I don't, the I get even more depressed. And I've tried that experiment where you let them come to you instead of always going up to them, and not once has it worked. Mostly because I can't help not going up and talking to him when I have something to say, or when I need help with something and he's there to help me.
As the book says, Boys Are Stupid, Throw Rocks At Them. I don't actually know if that would make me feel better, but you never know.
You want to know what the really funny/ironic thing here is? I used to make fun of girls who got like this over guys ALL THE TIME. AND I swore that I would never act that way over a boy no matter what. Karma, I'm telling you.
Anyway, I've been in this position once before, I can get through it again. It won't be fun or easy, but I can. With the Lord, all things are possible, even what seems like a hopeless situation and impending heartbreak. :)
Anyway, back to the guy that I DO like, I really am at a loss of what to do. I just keep feeling like I'm not good enough for him, that there's something that I don't have like I'm lacking an extremely important quality, and then I start to nitpick at everything about me, my weight, my life habits, the way I act, talk, my grades, the way that no guys that I am ever interested in like me. These last couple weeks, I've worried more and watched my weight more than I have ever watched it. And I've been comparing myself to a girl that I know he does (or at least used to, I don't know if he still does) like and wondering what she has that I don't, the I get even more depressed. And I've tried that experiment where you let them come to you instead of always going up to them, and not once has it worked. Mostly because I can't help not going up and talking to him when I have something to say, or when I need help with something and he's there to help me.
As the book says, Boys Are Stupid, Throw Rocks At Them. I don't actually know if that would make me feel better, but you never know.
You want to know what the really funny/ironic thing here is? I used to make fun of girls who got like this over guys ALL THE TIME. AND I swore that I would never act that way over a boy no matter what. Karma, I'm telling you.
Anyway, I've been in this position once before, I can get through it again. It won't be fun or easy, but I can. With the Lord, all things are possible, even what seems like a hopeless situation and impending heartbreak. :)
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